Friday, December 31, 2004
2004 had been a wonderful year for me.. It really thought me alot of stuff.... yea... lotsa things happen to me too in '04.. may it be good or bad... I'm glad I've make it thru...
Well, lotsa fond memories... and these are a some of my many good memories that I liked to share.....
7th Feb - My b'day @ Pasir Ris Beach.. It was awesome.. Thanks you guys for the surprises.... The wishes you all wrote on the sand.. it's magnificient.... i really enjoyed it....
10 July - Jams and Hop.. had fun with the BB gurls.. all dressed up so perfectly... and it was nice...
19 July - I saw a shooting star.. wished for something.. and yea.. it did came true... :D
15 August - Went to firework display and den sheesha-ing.. It was awesome.. A wonderful nite spent with my close ones..
10 Oct - A VERY special day... something i will never ever forget!
Well.. that's just a few stuffs that happen.. there's lot more to it.. but.. not gonna tell all... weeee~~
But of coz.... that's juz my good memories... I do have alot of sad moments too.. a moment where tears and loneliness were my best friends..... days wen i cried myself to sleep... days wen i just forgot how to smile..... but yea... i have great supports around me..... they were there to help me pulled it thru... thanks pple... {u noe who u are} not gonna list any of these bad memories.. let dem alone just stayed at the back of ma mind..... let it just be missing in ma mind.... :)
well.. that's it for now.... hmm... not gonna go to any countdown party tonite.. ma mum wun let me.. :( but i do hope i could just go out.. and spend the year with u... juz u... :)
I'm out.... A very Happy 2005 to all those who read this....
outtieZ
{10:45 AM}
anyhow... the play ended bout 10+... god i'm late and i'm in trouble.. cuz i didn't told ma mum m going for the play... and to top it up..... my bro was at home yesterday.. and den he msged me something errr, "frustrating".. he told me.. "where are you now? what time you coming home? Don't let me give you timing to come home everyday, u are mature enough to think"... geez.. i was like... ahhh.. at that pt of time... i couldn't do anything sey.... den ma mum called.. she sounded damn angry.. that's wen i started to panic.... hahahahaha.... but den wen i got home.. she didn't say anything much.. buat suspense je.... {maybe giving me the silent treatment} geeeZ.....
but yea... i enjoyed myself yesterday... had fun..... it was great.. :D
outtieZ
{10:30 AM}
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
well den... aft we went to the "F" shop.. we went to Mango... hmm.. couldn't find anything nice there... but bought 3 tops earlier from Mango.. so.. it's ok.. hehehehee...... den aft that.. i went to the Metro warehouse sale again..... grab the pants i wanted... on monday i went to the warehouse sale.. and bought a shoe... weeeee~ well, as for Sha, hell she was really really shopping.... hehehee... hmm.. we should do this together more often eh sha... hehehehehe.... well... it was nice... :D hehehee...
so that's bout it... m having fun... m smiling away.... but..... yea.... wad the hell.. :)
outtieZ
{9:30 AM}
Monday, December 27, 2004
anyway.. yea m still pissed at her... m still fcuking pissed at her comments..... she really dun hafta say it..... but in the first place.. how did she noe????? fyne... nvm... retribution is mafcuker... revenge is sweet........ she's gonna get it from me.. in a nice way....
anyway.. yea.. now stuck at i-zone.. i dunnoe wad to do.. m bored.... hmm..gonna haf class at 3.. oh ya.. i looked weird todae... hahaha.. m wearing long sleeve, purple flowery top.. hahahhaa. and jeans..... it's from Mango... oklah.... m gonna go somewer.. ease ma fckuing mind.......
outtieZ...
{1:51 PM}
Friday, December 24, 2004
now i'm feeling blank... numb.. ignorance... wadever.. whicever...... i dunnoe... all i noe, todae m going out... wit ma family.. gonna spend some time wit ma cuzzy b4 she haf to go back to Brunei this weekend.. :'( haiz... i can't tell her ma stories now.. no more bitching and stuff.... sedih sey.... yea, she's not ard anymore.. ma bro and sis not ard too.. they going fer their hols... yea left me and ma mum.... just the 2 of us....... dunnoe wad m gonna do this weekend.. maybe gonna walk ard orchard.. do some of ma long anticipated wait for shopping... i dunnoe.. we'll see...
haiz.. for now... i wanna do ma report... at least, ma mind is occupied.... *sheitz*
numb mind... outtieZ
{10:04 AM}
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
anyway, at CCC bought hmm, hershey's kisses and chupa chupz flower fer maself... :D and erm, kamal gave me this hmm, i dunnoe how to explain ah.. but it's nice.. :D thanks.. heheheheh... anyway, yea... yesterday did a test tube name fer that someone and maself.. it's niceee... weheheheehhe....
so that's just bout it.. m tired... and sleepy......
till den.. outtieZ....
{4:37 PM}
Monday, December 20, 2004
well, m all alone at i-zone now.. lost ma mood somehow.. juz wanna be quiet... and i am... i didn't talk much today... i was cranky.. maybe becuz of the huge headache that i have now.... it really hurts sey.... well, no mood to eat also.. juz ate fries.. tu pun tak habis... hungry, yea.. but like i say no mood to eat......... my cough seem to worsen.... nvm ah.. it'll be ok soon....
i really dun feel like going to class today... my mind's now at proj... haiz.. and some other problems... haizz......
i miss ya.. but.. i noe u mite b pissed at me now... m soo sorry....
that's it.. outtieZ
{1:13 PM}
Friday, December 17, 2004
Haiz.. Everything and everyone seem to be opposing me... i dunnoe ah... i'm already at the verge of breaking down... i'm at my most fragile state.. I can just give up anytime... I could feel the stress now.. i dunnoe.. haiz.. i need u to be my side.. but i noe, u got yr projs and yr stuff too... i dun wanna ask fer much anyway.... well, as long as i noe that u're around me.. i'm fine... haiz...
well, enuff bout that... another thing is... i just fcuking fork out $150 for my bills!!!! bingit sey.....!! ahhh.. cam nak nangis sey tengok duit kluar... just deposit my salary yesterday.. and todae dah kena bayar bill...was just thinking of going shopping.. hmm.. buy some baju or skirts... and shoes.. but ahhh... dun dream bout it ahhh........ eurgh!! I'm totally pissed at myself... i dunnoe... :'(
enuff said.... i'm outtieZ
{11:11 PM}
Thursday, December 16, 2004
haiz.... wad a song on the radio, Forever by Damage.. old song.. but yeahhh.. nice... lurve the song...
anyway, there's so many things that i wanna let out.. but i noe i can't.. actually i can, obviously i can, i mean it's my thought anyway, but only that i dun want to.. i choose not to... haiz...
and there's so many things in ma head... that i just dunnoe which one to prioritize first..... my projs, my studies, esc stuff.... and some other stuff... i seem lazy nowadays... i dunnoe why... yea, i noe u've been trying hard to ask me to go fer class.. i'm just plain lazy.. lazy to do my projs as well...... procrastinating again i guess.. but this is my last sem.. it's stupid if i dun put my effort in this... well.. i dunnoe......
well, so yea, going fer ma class soon.. lab... i hafta go.. hmm, i'll update soon....
miss ya..
outtieZ
{2:44 PM}
Monday, December 13, 2004
Firstly.... Happy belated 2nd.. it's the 2nd of the 10th.. thanks fer everything.. it's been a superb and wonderful time... :D u're always special!!
well, dat's the first stuff i wanna say.. anyway.. yea, on the 10th.. on that very special day of mine... i have Dinner and Dance at Equinox.. it's at the 69th floor of Raffles the Plaza.. so yea, it was damn cool... hmm, my sis won the 2nd prize fer lucky draw.... and it's a canon digi cam.. so kewl... anyway... aft the dinner, we went to the club above.. the asia bar.. it's at the 70th floor.. and we were at the VIP lounge... it was really really damn cool... had a great time.. but i really did wished u were there though... den could have spent it wit ya... :( so sorry............
owel, den i came home ard 4.30am.. was really tired... and hmm, slept straight aft that..
the very same day, went to wild wild wet.. yea.. my first time.. hehehhehehe.. so fun.. :P enjoyed it.. so, tried all the rides there.... :D weehehehehhe...
well, that's it.. hmm, now contemplating weder to go or not to my class.. hmmmm... we'll see
outtieZ..
{2:24 PM}
Monday, December 06, 2004
so, i've been like "activating" from 9am all the way to maybe 9pm..... 12hrs.. {and i haven't had any proper meals yet}
but... not so tired though... gonna eat sushi later wit my colleague... weeee~~
outtieZ
{8:40 PM}
Geez.. first day of skul.. sure it's sucks.. yea, was suppose to be late for skul... until wen i'm at east gate, khai called me and told me the class were cancelled.. sheitZ.. so, yea.. sat at bb.. it's been a long time since I slacked ard at bb.. missed that place... well, yea.. was at bb from 9am to 11am.... lamer sak... but in btw, went to bookshop.. get some stuff..
hmm, met lotsa pple... and yea.. just gonna get used to it i guess...
so yea, met most of the bb peeps.... kewlness.. miss them alot too... den exchange lotsa stories and lotsa gossip... hhehehhehee... well, yea den at 11.. went fer lecture... *aarrrghhh* dah start blaja... but me? study on the first day.. hehehee.. i was either like half asleep thru the lecture or just talking to sha... didn't concentrate at all....
den.. aft the class, was suppose to have my MP project slot... but yea, i went to werk anyway... so now at werk lah... hehehe.. hmm... really tired ah to go to werk from skul... i hope i dun have to do this cycle anymore... dun even haf time to eat.... only ate SALAD jus now.. yes.. i ate salad.. hahahahahahah... :p
oklah.. that's bout it... another day tmr.....
well, i'm having dinner at dance at equinox (swissotel, 70th floor) this fri.. on the 10th.. still contemplating weder i wanna go or not...... hmmmm.....
outtieZ
{5:27 PM}
Thursday, December 02, 2004
well, yea.... Singapore u made the rite choice... no worries to send him to the World Idol...
Again, congrats Taufik Batisah!! You sang extremely well yesterday nite......
hehehe.. cute ain't he?? ouhh, i lurve it wen he sang all the song last nite.. esp superstition... best..... and, wen he wink his eyes... wahhh... hehehehehehe.....
p/s jgn jealous tau.. he's just my idol.. like eminem.. only the local version.. ;)
outtieZ
{4:00 PM}
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Remember vote for TALENT (*coughs*taufik*coughs*)... hehehehe...
As for me.. obviously gonna vote for taufik..... hehehe.. well, he's good... :D
so.. dun forget k... 7.45pm show and result at 10pm......... watch it!
outtieZ
{4:07 PM}
Poor lil baby.. left this world without a name, without the slightest moment to be with the parents... how cruel of the mother to do something like that.... Can you imagine, throwing a new born baby... it's like.. it's still so fragile... Seriously i dunnoe how "her mum" managed to do that.... just putting a baby in a plastic bag, and just threw it out of the corridor... like as if it's some kinda trash..... well, maybe to her, that baby is a trash.... dah pandai buat, tapi tak pandai tanggung.. {dat's wad my mum wld say} if she really dun wanna the baby, she could at least just put it somewer safe, or surrender it to somewer... at least it's better than just throwing it away......
she's crazy.. she's outta her mind... she's feelingless, she's heartless.. she is worst than an animal...
Well, lil one.. may u rest in peace...it's so sad u didn't manage to see the world.. so sorry for you that you were given birth by such a cruel "mum"..
And to it - "the mum" may u rot in peace.... may u face the most severe punishment... wadever reasons u have for throwing away the baby.. really dun make any sense at all......
outtieZ
{9:00 AM}