Every Little Thing...

Thursday, December 29, 2005

things happen for a reason

it's been quite some time since i last update. many unexpected things happen to me. nah. not gonna elaborate.

life's been one hellavu roller coaster ride. thanks for being there. you know who you are. i'm just fortunate i have you both.

to my dear, thanks for every single thing. from your time, to your presence, to your words of encouragement, to everything that you offered me. i'm the most luckiest girl ever.

p.s have i told you lately that i love you?? i do, i really do. =)

{12:42 AM}

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

i miss u

i miss my dear. like alot now.

somehow, i need him now. =( but i know it's not possible at all.

i can only wait till weekends before I know I will have you back in my arms and me securedly in yours

missing you much.

{11:13 AM}

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Thank you

Thanks boyfriend, for the bumper car rides and the dart throwing...

I love you, Mr. Policeman! =)

{12:38 AM}

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Missing him already

ok.. this is dreadful...

onli few hours, and i'm missing him. Just now when I sent him early this morning, while in the cab with his mum and sis, i couldn't help but stare at him from the back seat. I could see he's in deep thought. Dear always look good when he's thinking.

PA was nearer and nearer as we drove down the expressway. I'm getting more tension and nervous and sad. And almost everything. I don't want him to go. I wanna hold him back, but I know I can't. Went to met his cousin first at Ang Mo Kio, changed car and off we went to PA. Sitting beside him, I just miss him more.

We arrived at PA. Damn. I don't like it. There we walked to the place he's suppose to register. He walked briskly up the stairs as I just looked at him. We waited downstairs for him, only to know that we're at the wrong place. went to where dear was, he was in one lecture theater. Lil we knew that, we can actually leave while he's in the LT. No proper saying goodbyes. No exchange of words. We all walked away. I miss him badly now.

We waited around Toa Payoh area, but he asked us to go home. He must have been missing us badly too. Off we went. Went Waterina Condo to pick up Kak Anis's mum's clothing. Nice place. Beautiful, scenic, calm and cosy. Yr mum mention we should get that kinda house. Isn't that what we planned? hehe

Dear, I miss you. And just now, spending time with your family, makes me closer to you. I'm loving your family too.

Dear, I don't know if i can bear not seeing u for 5 days and able to see u only over the weekends. I hope I can. Sabar, time flies.

Don't worry dear, i'll be fine. I'm proud of you. I'm now officially mr. policeman's gf. =)

{5:50 PM}

Happy Birthday

To My Special, Most Bestest, Guy Best Friend Ever...

MUHAMMAD KHAIRUL HAQQIM... HAPPY 21st Birthday!!!

Finally.... May all your hopes, dreams, wishes and prayers come true... be patience, the one might just be on her way... ;) Good guy finish last ey..

Thanks for all the years of being my friend.. we should celebrate soon k... TripodZ maybe? hehehe..

Khai, my happy wishes are just for you.. stay happy and smiley always.. dun feel down.. cuz u noe u got me and lind by your side... u're the bottom line.. my pillar of strenght.. =)

To my devilish cuzzin... yet always loveable and caring..

NATASHA NUR!!! HAPPY 18th Birthday...

Even though you're far away from me.... your N90 is on the way.. like i told u yesterday... the butler will send it to u k.... (hahahhaa.. like real)

But anywhoo... a special someone like u.. should have a special treat from me... hmm.. come over singapore soon k...

Love u both soooooooo much... mwahhhh.. enjoy yr special dayy...!!

Let's celebrate... Cheerious...

{5:35 PM}

Monday, December 12, 2005

Shattered

Tomorrow will be the day where dear bf will be in camp. Emotionally, I'm not under control. I just feel like crying sey. I dun like the feeling of loneliness. I dun like the feeling of knowing he's not by my side.

Dear,
You will be going thru a new phase in life. A new chapter in your life. You will be experiencing new things, meeting new people. I hope we can make this thru. Your sis told me, she has faith in us. I have faith in our love. this will be a great jump in our relationship. no more "college school sweethearts". We're more than that.

Dear,
I'm loving you more each day. 5 years of that bond, will be a passing cloud to us. And what happen after that, I'm patiently waiting for it. we have so many things planned out. our next vacation. I just can't wait.

Dear,
I love you, and always love you. We'll always be the most loving couple of all. You're the only person in my heart. You're the light of my life. You're everything to me.

Dear,
Good luck in this new phase of life. Even though I'm literally shattered about this, but I have to be strong right dear? I have to be independant now. I might fall real bad for the next few months, but I know, you'll always support me from wherever you are.

Loving you dear

{11:26 PM}

one more day.. :(

one more day and dear going thru another phase of his life. I'm not really emotionally prepared for it cuz I always have him by my side, and I know it. But when he's in NS, I know his time will be divided. I have to pull through this.

Spending time with dear today. And I'm sure gonna spend this precious moments with him.

14months passed, I still love him. And loving him more.

Dear, hope everything will be fine wen you pass by this stage of your life. I'll always be here for you.

{11:35 AM}

Phuket. Awesome

Phuket was more than just simply awesome. Apart from the work and missing home that is. But the events that were planned out was simply wonderful.

But Monday and Tuesday, was kinda bored. Cuz alot of work to be done and stuffs. So yeah, Wednesday night was the dinner by the beach. It was a very nice atmosphere. The breeze, the dinner (even though i was kinda sick) and also the performance. Everything else was just simply nice. Thursday night, dinner by the Bangsak beach. The settings was magnificient and the sound of the wave is really calm (somehow it made me think of the tsunami though. lol). The food, I dun realli like it. But the performance by the kids at the surrouding school was just perfect. And not forgetting the Loy Krathong. And another thing which i dunnoe the name. But the highlight of the night is that... My DEAR arrived!! So happy. Finally got to spend time with him. :) hehee. After not seeing him for like 4 days, i truly miss him.

Just looking at dear's face make my whole body melts. I so love him. :D Spending time with him in Phuket is the bestest thing in my life. Thanks dear for being there.

On Friday noon, went kayaking in the open waters and also swimming.. It's been a long time since I did beach activities. I miss jet skiing and snorkelling thought. But hopefully can do it next year if I go for another holiday! Friday night the main event of the week. the DnD. Near the pool. Darling bf was soo good looking that night. Anyways, the setting was nice, but only that I sat behind this stupid tree, so can't realli see. The organizer called my named up the stage to receive a token of appreciation cuz I'm helping out. I was sooo embarrassed but yet proud. Infront of 300+ pple, there I stand. Being recognize. And there's fireworks. (I LOVEEEEEEEEE fireworks) It was superb. With dear by my side, the fireworks. Wonderful. And to top it all up. Strike midnight, was our 14months anniversary. Went to the bar nearby. Dancing all the night.

Saturday morning till evening, was just shopping day for all of us. Yes, i finished my 4200+bht. hahah. Flight got delayed twice, from 1940hrs, to 2000hrs to finally 2030hrs. fed-up waiting at the boarding area, doing nothing..

Everything was really nice. But as usual, he always make my life perfect. Thanks dear. I love you. Happy 1year and 2months. We made our promise right. I'll surely keep mine.